Monday, November 24, 2008

What I really need

Proverbs 14:29
Those who are patient have great understanding...

As I opened my bedroom door this morning,
I found a empty chocolate pudding cup,
laying in front of me,
on the floor.
I took a deep breath and tried to be patient.

When I wanted to rush through school with Bethany because,
I had a house to clean,
I reminded myself to be patient.

As I scraped off the thick bright blue toothpaste Joseph smeared over the sink,
I asked for God to give me patience.

While I was cleaning more filth off the floor,
than the toilet itself,
I prayed I'd be a patient mother.

At the end of this day,
when more things are left on my To Do list than off,
I am realizing this,


What would my life be like if I always had patience?
Never ending,
always filled with patience.

Maybe I would've stopped and smiled at seeing that pudding cup.
Thanking God for my hungry little boy,
instead of sighing in frustration.

Or maybe,
I would be happy that my children have the ability and initiative to brush their own teeth,
that they aren't afraid to get dirty.

I think,
I would've reminded myself how glad I am not to have to change big kid diapers anymore. Being happy to clean the floor instead.

I would be filled with contentment and satisfaction at the end of my day,
knowing I achieved so many thing that weren't on my To Do list.
Things that are more important.
Like playing and hugging my children.
Like taking the time to teach Bethany how to read her first word.

CAT.

Life is really very simple, I am the one who makes it all complicated.

I lose focus of the things that really matter. My children, their hearts and their minds.
If I had more patience,
I would be
slow to speak
slow to anger
and frustration
less stressed
speak more kindly
and softly
look into my children's eyes
not rush them
when they speak
quick to listen
more attentive
more focused on what really matters
right this minute

I want more patience tomorrow than today

3 comments:

Carrie said...

You are the only person I know that could write something like that so creatively. I didn't want the post to end. You told all about your day in such a positive way you could have just said that your day was bad and and said why but you turned it all around! I need to remember to do that more. You are such a good role model and I love you! I hope God gives you the patience you need today. Good luck at the doctor I am praying for you.

Jeff, Dana and Hayden said...

Miranda- You write so beautifully and speak what many mothers think. I have prayed for patience more these past few weeks than ever before. You bring up a good point to see the good even in the not so pleasant daily tasks we do. I'll pray that you get the patience you are looking for

Mom said...

As I said in an earlier post, "My children are still teaching me" Thanks for today's lesson Miranda. I sure needed it! PATIENCE - the ability to bear trials without grumbling