Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Fear Not

Psalm 18:31
Who is God besides the LORD? And who is the Rock except our God?

Joseph has always been a very sensitive little boy. As a baby, he needed lots of comforting. I don't know how I ever accomplished anything, because I held him all the time. He needed extra comfort, extra nursing, extra cuddling, and extra patience.
His tolerance and dependence have greatly improved since his baby years, but those characteristics were really true of him and how his personality is today.
Loud noises really bother him, if he gets in trouble it upsets him. Even a little reprimand and he covers his hands over his ears. He is in a new stage of being very fearful. I remember Bethany going through a fearful stage too. She was afraid of strangers, policemen, and neighbors. Her fears have calmed down a bunch since then. I think she still has a healthy concern for strangers, but it doesn't consume her as it did before.
Joseph is terrified of this short clip that comes on the Disney Channel. It's about Mater, from Cars. Mater goes in a burning building to rescue a bunch of screaming cars. Joseph has seen Cars, and likes Mater the best. When he sees that clip he flips out screaming and puts his hands over his ears. Most of the time I am not in the room, if I hear that petrified scream I know exactly why he is upset.
I guess building off of that fear, he became fearful of my parents new gas fireplace. He was enjoying the fire, until he wasn't expecting and it ignited. The crackling, air sounds really aren't that scary, but to him they're awful. The rest of the night, he played outside of the room, or curled up in a ball, behind a chair, with his hands over his ears.
Of course, we all tried to calm his fears, to rationalize the situation for him, to tell him he is safe. I think the most frustrating part for me was that he couldn't understand he was safe. He had Joe and I, and Mamma and Papaw, we wouldn't let him get hurt. We all wanted him know he didn't have to be afraid.
This morning when Joseph came screaming to me once more because of the Mater clip, I realized a parallel with how God must feel with me. How many times do I fear something, stress and worry about things, that aren't real danger. He sees the bigger picture and to Him it is so simple for me to not be afraid. How saddened He is that I can't see that He will protect me and keep me safe. I refuse to listen to Him telling me, “'Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.'” Isaiah 41:10

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