Monday, February 23, 2009

I've been wandering around for awhile

So it's been a few days since I posted anything. Feels like forever to me. Seems like I've been moving in slow motion for a long time. The past few days have been overwhelming and basically the business of motherhood has gotten me down.
Honestly, I didn't even want to come sit in my cold basement and blog because the mess down here is just another reminder to me that my life is out of control. I can't escape it, no matter where I go in this house it follows me. Every object is calling to me. Looking down I see Gerber puffs and dust balls, I look around and see dust on the furniture, filth in the bathrooms, piles to be sorted, and bills to pay.

So I close my eyes.

I hear children calling for me and a baby crying for me. Some one is always hungry or thirsty. Some one has a boo boo or needs a peacemaker.

This is the life I love and am blessed to call mine. It is an adventure and my children are wonderful. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.
This is just one of those times where I realize, I need help. I can't do this on my own. Instead of looking down or around me, I need to look up. God knows, where I am and He cares. So I come back to where I have been so many times before and will be many times more, and say, "I need you Jesus."

Matthew 11:28
Come to me, all of you who are weary and loaded down with burdens, and I will give you rest.

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