Monday, October 26, 2009

My pillows have gone flat

Proverbs 18:14
A man's spirit sustains him in sickness,
but a crushed spirit who can bear?

Here I am, another Monday, starting off my fourth week without my kids home to wake me up, because I'm still just not up to it. It's hard, have I mentioned that yet? I hate to complain because I have so many things to be thankful for right now. I'm thankful I have the ability to rest, that my kids are safe and well taken care of with my parents. I'm thankful they don't have to be shipped from one persons' house to the next.
I'm thankful for my husband who has been amazing, doing things he has never done before, like making pancakes for supper, going to the grocery {I mean, The Grocery, on a Saturday kind of shopping} laundry and cleaning up the messes. Turns out he's really good at this line of work!
I'm thankful for his love and compassion toward me during this crazy time. I'm thankful for his assurance that it's okay that I'm near completely helpless to him. He tells me to rest and get better and that means more than anything. I'm blown away that he not only tells me to rest and get better, but gives me the ability to do so by making it possible.
I'm thankful for music to listen to, for a computer that gives me some access to the outside world. I'm thankful to family and friends taking the time encourage us, help us and pray for us.
Most of all, I'm thankful for the Word that comforts me and encourages me. I've found great peace during this time, peace that can't be found any where else.
I read the scripture in Proverbs last night and it sums up what I've been thinking all last week. When we are physically weak, we must remain spiritually strong. God was confirming to my heart that spiritual health is more important than physical health. That is all that matters, it's so much easier to see how much I need Him, when I realize all I need is Him.
I think I am able, but only God is Able.
I think I am strong, only God is Strong.
I think I can do it, only God can do All Things.
Without Him,
I am nothing.
With Him,
He is Everything.

Lastly I have to share this scripture, it's my heart's cry, over my head's screaming mind, which is nearly deranged and hardly true. Not really, but almost!

Isaiah 33:2
O Lord, be gracious to us, we long for you.
Be our strength every morning,
our salvation in time of distress.

6 comments:

{Kimber} said...

Great post--you are a strong woman to endure it--I'd be NUTSO!!!
beautiful pic btw---I long for fall foliage :(

mmtaul said...

Miranda, I have been where you are, 4 small children and unable to take care of my family, very difficult. But as you hold on to God, He WILL see you through. You and your family are going to be so much stronger on the other end of this trial. Count it all JOY! =) Love you!

The Rutledges said...

Get stronger! It will seem like a short time when this passes!

Kari @ p.s. love.love. said...

You just listed so many wonderful things we should all be thankful for. Good post and beautiful photo.

Anonymous said...

Hey - Brandon said you've got a stomach bug. :( I'm so sorry to hear that. Hope you recover quickly!

Love ya. ~M

Wendy said...

The strength God is showing us through you is truly amazing! You remind us all that, no matter what or where we are, we do have much to be thankful for. Praying your full health returns soon!