Monday, April 26, 2010

Back for a moment

Romans 12:1-2
Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

You all have been so encouraging and patient with my recent blogging absence. Thanks for being so understanding and positive. Your comments and emails have really been used to lift my spirits and point me in the right direction for an attitude adjustment many attitude adjustments. Those happen daily, several times a day. I wish I could say that I'm back and life is all back to normal and running smoothly again, but I can't.
I can however, tell you my door bell rang this morning and I found the mail lady on my porch with my camera lens in hand! That makes me happy. I haven't had much time to use it today, but I love it already.
We closed on out home on Friday, the buyers seem like great people but I begrudgingly signed each line, wishing I wasn't handing my house over to them. It's not that I don't want to move, it's that I want a place to move to. Our housing market is doing really well because of military realignment. Which is great on the selling side but not on the buying side. Houses are selling like hotcakes, especially since every one is trying to get the tax credit next year by buying a house by April 30th.
Joe and I are bidding on a house that was recently foreclosed on. It's not our perfect house, but it would certainly do. The mortgage company bid a counter offer today and we countered back. It would be nice if they agreed to our offer and we could try to wrap this deal up on paper before Friday.
It has become obvious that we will have to be out of our home by May 19th and even if we are to strike up an agreement on this house by Friday we wouldn't close until around June 8th. Leaving us homeless for 2-3 weeks and having to move our belongings twice. So, it certainly won't be a smooth transition.
Life has been super crazy, I think the craziest time we've ever gone through in our marriage. I've just not had the heart for blogging, which as you know is very unheard of. I think I'll be back more often soon. I'm sure life will calm down eventually, I can't wait for that day! Seasons of life like this make me appreciate the daily grind.
I fall to sleep at night and wake up in the middle of the night, unable to go back to sleep, trying to figure out God's plan and purpose for the crazy chaos, and all the closed doors. I told Joe I feel like my nose is bleeding, if not broken from all the doors that keep getting slammed in our face. I may never figure all this out, but I know that God will lead us through.
It's a struggle, trusting that pain is for my good, having faith that closed doors will lead to the right path, and believing that even when I can't see the steps in front of me, my feet will not slip. It's a daily renewing of my mind, many days, hourly renewing my mind. Reminding myself that we will be okay and that this is all for our good.


MamaMonki said...

Keep your chin up - you have a wonderful attitude and your right - it's all part of God's plan. (I struggle with remembering that when things are taking too long or not going the way I think they should too.)

~Mom ~ said...

Yeah! So happy you had some happiness at your door today. Looking forward to the pictures.

Lyndsay Taylor said...

oh girl, you know I am with you in your feelings and thoughts. I know when I had a few really good days (back a couple weeks ago, they were quite random) I remember thinking, "If you feel really sick and tired again, remember to be easy on yourself. It's not your fault and you can't expect yourself to fix it." It's so funny how clear that was THEN. Anyway, I'm so sorry your life is insane right now and I hope the Lord will give you quiet moments of rest in Him. I wish there was some way I could help! I will pray...

Keeping Up with The Joneses said...

Yikes~moving belongings twice is difficult~we did that with 4 and then 5 kids! I know the house struggles n moving n selling...we had our KY house explode while in KS and then bought and sold both houses and moved all within 2 months! Crazy...I pray the Lord will give you peace!

{Kimber} said...

I am glad to hear from you even if things are quite going the way you'd hoped...I know it will all work out!!

Missing you

Bonnie said...

Jeremiah 29:11 got me through the past few years.