Friday, April 30, 2010
Time and again, always and forever He is faithful
The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.
I am not a woman of unwavering faith. When I can't see around the bend in the road or lose my way, I falter and doubt. Thankfully, I do not serve a God of wavering plans. He is in control, despite how little credit I give Him often times.
Sometimes I look back on recent events and see the process and sometimes not. When the purpose isn't obvious as to why I go through hard times, His reasoning is always the same. The reason for the trials in life is to teach me and grow me, to prove to me again that I need Him more.
More than I need myself.
It looks so obvious in writing, it seems so easy to say when it's not me in the eye of the storm, and I often write it and speak it more out of desperation than belief when I'm being hit hard with the struggles of life. Not that I don't believe that God could, I believe that God can do anything, but sometimes it's harder to believe that He will. That He will do something for me.
That's what I love about hope, whenever my faith is thin, I always have hope. I have faith that God is faithful, that His promises are sure and that His love is higher than anything I could ask or think. The faith I have in these truths gives me hope, and that hope builds my faith that no matter the situation I will be okay.
No matter the outcome of any situation.
This week has been a sequence of events of God proving that He is faithful when I can't see what He is doing behind the scenes. It's like He's bringing certain trials to a close, some of it I know how He did it and some of it I don't have a clue about. But, that is not the point. The point is, He is proving Himself faithful. Not because He has to prove anything, but because He wants to prove Himself trustworthy.
I feel like over and over this week He has softly and lovingly said, "Why did you doubt me? See I am never going to leave you." Not in an I-told-you-so tone of voice. He chooses to repeatedly, uniquely and personally show Himself faithful, because that is the kind of God He is. He is personal and He desires to deepen our relationship. His and mine relationship. He is jealous for me.
He is jealous for you too. Are you reaching out to Him? He is reaching for each of us.