Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Knowing Him more
I recently received an email from a reader asking what I mean when I write about seeing God's fingerprints. Though I don't think I have ever referred to God's fingerprints, I think she meant my references to the little things God does to show me His love or the lessons He teaches me through daily happenings. This person is longing to experience more of God and to know Him in a deeper way. It is the same desire that burns in each of our hearts. It calls out if we only take time to stop and listen for it, rather than ignoring it or smothering it with our fast paced life style. Her email was confirmation to write this post that I've been mulling over for a couple weeks.
There are times in my life where I am more sensitive to that longing and need for more of God, regardless it is always there. It's the way each of us are designed. For whatever reasons, e.g. pain, confusion, fear, emptiness, there are times when my heart is screaming at me to search for answers, to ask for help, to pour out my heavy heart to God.
Other times, I am more acutely aware of God speaking to me. He speaks to my through His Word, often in the stillness. Sometimes He reminds me of His love through His creation. And other times, being a parent helps me better grasp His great love toward me, often He shows me my own need for discipline as I instruct my children.
I must appear often to Him as my two year old does to me, when I offer her assistance and she adamantly says, "DO MYSELF!" I'm wired exactly the same, I like to think I can do it myself. This natural way of thinking is ever needing to be re-wired. Thankfully, God allows me to come to the end of myself, usually in frustration and fatigue. As much as I wish I had learned and moved on from this lesson in my life, I'm grateful when I reach the realization that I'm doing it again. I'm going about life on my own, and I really don't have to be doing it this way.
Having an intimate relationship with God looks different for all of us, but nonetheless, there is nothing more that God wants than to communicate with each of us. He demonstrated His great love for us by sending His son to earth, to live among us, and to ultimately die for us. Even now He is not a God who sits far off, He is knowable. He promises to answer us when we call to Him. His eyes are on each of us, longing to strengthen us. He knows us each individually, He knows us better than we know ourselves, He knows us from the inside out, He knows what we will say before we speak it, and His thoughts regarding each one of us alone outnumbers the grains of sand. In Isaiah 49:15-16 He says, He will never forget us, our names our engraved on the palms of His hands.
I've recently finished reading, Closer Than Your Skin, by Susan D. Hill. This book was definitely a timely gift from God to me. I found it at a outlet Christian bookstore and was drawn to it's description, "Unwrapping the Mystery of Intimacy with God." Plus, it was endorsed by the author of one of my favorite books, by Joanne Weaver. I cannot tell you how much I have enjoyed reading and now re-reading this book. If you are longing and searching for a more intimate relationship with God, her book combines the powerful effect Bible reading, prayer, and the Holy Spirit have when we search for more than a knowledge of who God is. Going through the motions of being a good Christian because that what we feel we ought to do, will not bring us close to God.
When writing about having a deeper relationship with God and searching for Him daily, Susan said, "If you don't believe it's possible in the first place, you won't pay attention. If you don't pay attention, you won't develop. It all comes down to faith - believing that God wants to be with you and talk to you, to show you the mystery and wonder of his ways. But more than that, he longs to tell you that you're loved, even adored."
I highly recommend her book, whether you are newly longing for a relationship with God, or are once again realizing the need for a deeper relationship with Him.
As with all relationships, our relationship with God requires constant communication, continually striving to know Him more, and learning to trust Him completely. We can not have an intimate relationship with Him, if we do not trust Him. There is a difference between believing God is real and believing that God wants to have a personal relationship with you. He longs for us to know Him, to see Him in the big things as well as the small, to search for Him in times of sadness and times of joy. Jeremiah 29:13 says that we will seek Him and find Him, when we search for Him with all our heart. I can speak from personal experience and say this, when we long for more of God and take the time talk to Him, look for Him and be honest with Him, He will not disappoint us in meeting our need to know Him.