Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Longing for a wise heart

By the end of yesterday, I was exhausted and sank into bed thrilled to only hear the ceiling fan and a/c running.  Jenna has been especially trying over the past few days and it has really mentally and physically wiped me out.  I'm having a hard time differentiating between the I'm-sick-and-don't-feel-good whining vs. I'm-two-and-need-an-attitude-adjustment whining.  I'm glad she is such a light-weight thing, because picking her up to carry her up the steps or to the potty when she resists is becoming more and more of a back breaking experience as Brady grows.
Her cold seems to be the last one holding on and her nose is still running like a river today, and I'm still trying to figure out which whines are which.  As soon as I realized I was in for yet another day of practicing patience, I made up my mind we were going outside again today.  It's the most peace and quiet I had all day yesterday and was the only time Jenna was pleasant.
True to my thinking, we finished up our bookwork schooling and took the rest outside, along with library reading.
The laundry.

And another child with a bad attitude.
In addition to dealing with two trying children,
Jenna got knocked over by the storm door when Joseph let it go too soon.  She fell into a bucket of rain water, soaking her dress and hurting her head.
I dealt with way too much poop and will refrain from sharing all those love-ly details with you.
Joseph fell and hit the side of his face.
{And, if you're wondering Mom, I'm okay.  My cell phone died while I was talking to you and I just never got around to calling you back!}
Can you imagine what kinda day I would have had so far, if we HADN'T gone outside!?  Right now, I'm just loving nap time, it is a blessing and has saved my sanity.  I'm also loving my Bethany Rose.  She has been such a great help to me today.  Repeatedly, cheerfully doing as I asked.  Running to get me a change of clothes for Jenna, an extra this, or a tube of that. It is such a precious thing to have a child lovingly and willingly obey, I thanked her, but it means more to me than she will know for a very long time.  Today I desperately needed her pleasant attitude!
There are few things that I care whether my children get from Joe and I, I don't care if they enjoy doing the things we enjoy doing, I don't care if they look like us, I don't care if they have different interest or excel in different ways than we do.  I do care and pray that they embrace the instruction we give them and learn to live for and love the Lord.  Not act as they have been told, but to live what is alive in their hearts. It's not about people seeing us in our children, it's about them reflecting the Light of the world.  A challenge to me as their parent, and me, period.  Something that I can never do on my own, or without much prayer.
Proverbs 2315-16 
My child, if your heart is wise, my own heart will rejoice!  Everything in me will celebrate when you speak what is right.


Jennifer @ The Toy Box Years said...

I'm sorry you had such a rough day! Hope everyone is on the mend soon!

Nate and Erin said...

You're a great mommy Miranda! I can imagine it's tough right now, but just think how much tougher it will be in the long run if you don't discipline children. Love you guys and miss you! I hope to get up there in October with Mylee, so see you soon!

Arlene said...

I am glad you are OK Miranda. I figured when we got cut off, you were busy and would call back when you got a chance. It just took me about a minute to realize I was talking,
but no one was listening. :)
I was a little stressed today myself and when I picked up my devotional to read, the first word was RELAX. So... I took a nap. I don't always take God so literally. But I sure enjoyed it today.
Praying for you.

Our Crazy Crew said...

I, too, am more concerned with their attitudes. I keep going back to Proverbs, too, about not being wise in our own eyes. I am learning to seek the Lord first in everything, including discipline and attitudes...mine included! :)

Bonnie said...

Outdoors has saved my sanity numerous times...as has tv but we won't go into that...;).

I know how hard it is as a Mommy of four to find patience somedays. As I typed this I had two interruptions but stopped typing to listen whole heartedly to the stories my twins had to tell.

Now they are disagreeing....sigh....

It's hard but so so good.

Meg said...

Wow, what a day! I'm glad you had a little peace throughout and were able to find a lesson in all that craziness! ;) I can relate to having a hard day with the kiddos as well.. It seems if one acts up, they all act up, and it's on the day where I got 3 hours of sleep and am sick with the flu or something like that. I appreciate how we can find peace in prayer and comfort in our Heavenly Father. Thank you so much for sharing your stories on my link party. I hope you can join each week! Have a happy, restful Sabbath!

Doll Clothes Gal Pal said...

So tough, but don't worry love, we are praying for you.