Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Monday's thoughts that didn't get published 'til Tuesday

Revelations 3:20
Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.
Sometimes life feels mundane, but when I take the time to look at each day for what it truly holds, I realize that every day is special and unique. I feel overwhelmed by how much life goes on around this house on a daily basis. 3 little people learning, growing and changing faster than I can keep up. All this leaves me feeling very satisfied to experience life with them and be their mother, it also makes me sad to think it's going by so quickly. This is why I blog, to somehow hold it forever, to capture what I can, but compared to what I manage to save, so much more slips through my grasp.
I said that I would never scrapbook, because I couldn't handle the guilt I'd have when {not if} I couldn't fairly keep up with each one of my child's lives. So, instead I blog, strikingly similar, and for the most part, it allows me to lump life together for everyone involved. Yet often, I do feel like I should be blogging more, taking more pictures, remembering each funny saying and deep question they ask.
I think these are the best years of my life, I hope I'm wrong and find out that I feel this way about each stage of my life. There are challenges to where I am in life right now, huge challenges some days. I know that is just part of life no matter which point I'm at currently. At the same time, there is so much good to be enjoyed each day, so much happiness and blessings that I take for granted if I'm not careful.
I want perfect pictures, perfectly focused. Pictures that I like the way I look in them, but that is unrealistic. The great thing about pictures, is that they get better with age and often the ones with the worst quality become the most precious.
Life's a blur, a chasing after the wind. So try as I might to capture what I can and embrace each day for the beauty and the lesson God has for me, it's going to go by all to quickly. I'm convinced He's waiting each morning for me to wake up and find Him. He's hoping I'll ask for His help with my struggles. He thinks about me all the time and just wants me to know that life with Him is all that matters.
Each day He has a plan and it's often not mine, I'm learning to yield. To stop and be still when my soul cries out to hear His voice. It's amazing what a few minutes of prayer or a few lines of scripture can do to my day, my attitude. I love how He meets me, among toy covered floors, dirty dishes piled in the kitchen, umpteenth trips to take Jenna potty, loads of laundry long overdue washing, and a to-do list that I'll never find the end of. Find a place of stillness among your blurry life, He is waiting for you to find Him.

4 comments:

someone who loves you as a family member! said...

LOVE THIS!!!!!!!! C= you brighten my day!

Our Family said...

So beautiful!! I got goosebumps just reading your words! How true- the time is going quickly & we need to hold on while we can! :)
Jessica

Anonymous said...

Thanks for this wonderful post !!!! such a reminder needed today :)
Esther

Bonnie said...

Beautiful post. I have to remember that on days like I am having today that my energy level is not fueled by the amount of rest I got but by Who is within me.

Blessings!!! You were one for me today.