2 Corinthians 5:17Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
Many weeks of life pass too quickly and I wish I could put in for a do-over or at least a slower pace. This week is one of the few I'll never ever wish to have back. Monday was promising for a Monday, but Tuesday morning at 3 AM I woke up with a terrible stomach sickness. I tried to tough it out in bed with Brady by my bedside while Joe was at work on Tuesday, I didn't want him to have to take off. I left Bethany to fend for herself, plus Joseph and Jenna. She made breakfast and they watched movies. She made me the nicest card that read: TO Mommy FROM Bethany There is nothing as sweet like you. Get Well Soon! Mommy, I am sorry you are sick I wish you cood fix us lunch and supper, I love you!
I finally caved at 12:30, I called my mom for Gatorade to be dropped at my doorstep and Joe to come home and take the baby duties and feed the children. Tuesday was only just the beginning, Joe coming home early resulted in two days home from work, doing both mommy and daddy duty. As always he rocks, he can run the house better than me, I love him.
I'm not sure what I had, if it was a virus no one else caught it, and we won't question that. I'm so glad no one else had to endure it, it was some of the nastiest stomach sickness I've ever had. I was hoping it was a 12 hour bug, then I counted down til the first 24 hours, it ended up being more like 48, plus another day to regain some strength and hydration.
Isn't it amazing how much being in pain turns our heart toward compassion for others? Am I the only person who has this response?! I told Joe I did more praying for chronically sick people I know and starving children than I have in a very long time. I am being serious!
I was also wishing Joseph could've had a little bit clearer understanding before he asked Jesus into his heart, but God knows his heart and how beautiful is that! It's so simple and sometimes as a Christian I over analyze and over-due and over-talk and over-want-to-make-sure, but it's not about having all the answers and a full understanding , it's about not knowing everything and having faith in the One who knows all things. It's about believing in God's redemption and forgiveness.
God wants us be like little children and yet time and time again as adults we get so caught up in over thinking God's Word and who He is. We make Christianity a competition, just like everything else in our lives. Why!? It's not about what we do for God, what we know about God, how much we show and tell others about God, not about looking like a good Christian or proving to others that we live for Jesus. It's about one thing, asking Jesus to come a live inside our hearts FOREVER. When He takes up residence there, we will live a life that pleases him and that is all that matters.
Daily I forget who lives inside my heart, it's a struggle between bitterness and forgiveness, hate and love, lies and truth, selfish and selfless, and focused more on this life, rather than the next. I'm continually fighting with Him over who lives here, I've even thrown all of His beautiful furnishing out and moved my junk in many times. I'm thankful for Christ grace, because I need a lot of do-overs and new mercies.