Thursday, February 9, 2012

I heart my Canon

I'm missing my camera, the lens is still broken and after making some phone calls it seems like I'm going to have to replace it.  I really love taking pictures and take it for granted how many times a day/week I pick it up to capture a moment of life around this busy home.
This week has been a struggle for me and I'm not completely sure why.  I haven't felt well and it's affecting my attitude.  I feel like I hit a pregnancy wall, or maybe it fell on me.  The thought that if this is the beginning of the end of my fifth pregnancy aches and pains, is overwhelming.  I was hoping to not feel this pathetic for several more weeks.  If this is the beginning, it's going to be a long 12 weeks. 
Then I feel guilty for complaining and I know people don't understand why I'm doing something again that is so hard for me.  The reward at the end is priceless and even now, each day of feeling this little life inside of me makes it worth it.  I just want to be Wonderwoman, I want to fly through life on top of everything, excelling at all the many tasks and jobs I need to do everyday. 
My patience has been thin and I just hate being so overcome with emotions and hormones that leave me feeling rotten.  I've been struggling to rise above and resist this cloud of blah, but haven't always been successful that's for sure.
I'm really thankful it's a new day today.  His mercies are new every morning...I'm so thankful for that.  With His help today will be better, today will be better.
Coffee never hurts either...


Miranda said...

Maybe it's a "Miranda" thing:) I could have written your post..You've got to give yourself some more credit though because I've been reading your blog for a few years now and you've always encouraged me on my own path of motherhood and I'm sure I'm not the only one!

Miranda said...

Thank you Miranda! I appreciate your encouragement today.