So, what am I talking about? Justified versus unjustified Mommy Guilt? I think that some times there is justified guilt, like when I have guilt for wasting time online instead of doing other needed things with and for my kids. Or like when I worry that my kids see me as a hypocrite because I lose my temper and yell at my husband when I tell them all the time not to fight and not to yell at each other, yeah painful. This kind of guilt is good though because is causes me to do something to change my behavior or my focus. It causes me to have self control with my online time, apologize to my kids for fighting with their daddy, to realize I need to work on something about my self or my parenting and do something differently.
Then there is unjustified Mommy Guilt, like feeling guilty for not accomplishing more in my day when I am doing my very best. Or feeling guilty because my desk is piled high and has been for months, or feeling guilty that my kids wore their pajamas all day long, or that they only had one bath this week, or that my closets are a mess and my house is unorganized, or that Bethany and Joseph can't tie their shoes yet, or that I'm pregnant and unable to give the rest of my kids
One thing that wasn't on my full page to-do-before-the-baby-arrives-list, but I've had some guilt over is making Bethany a doll. On Jenna's first birthday I made her a doll and ever since, very occasionally Bethany has asked me to make her a doll. It's just never worked and with another baby on the way I felt like I needed to go ahead and make her a doll. I also wanted to do something for her, for no reason, other than I love her and am so proud of her and am so thankful for all she does to help me.
For several months now, I have wanted to do something special to acknowledge her uniqueness and the gift she is to me. I guess, I have had some justified guilt about how I need to show her how special she is and I needed to make her a doll as well. The great thing about it is, I took time to do something about both of those things this weekend.
this photo and fell in love with the doll pattern that wasn't available on Etsy. I emailed the seller but was too eager to wait for a response so I decided to free hand a pattern. I am not good at this sort of thing and normally wouldn't even try it but I REALLY loved this doll. In the end, the doll turned out bigger than I wanted and has obvious differences. I still love the original doll better, although Bethany, after I showed her the picture, told me she liked her doll much better! :) I also, realized via reading the info on the Etsy site that the seller has a website and I could've in fact bought it all along. :( I will also pass on that there is a sale going on through today for 40% off all of Bit of Whimsy Dolls patterns making them $6.00! I'm not getting anything for sharing this with you, I just think they have some of the cutest patterns I've ever seen.
And speaking of cutest things I've ever seen, is this girl!