BGMC and I needed to do a massive clean out anyway. It's hard to daily accomplish much extra when my time is already loaded with constant necessities, nursing, changing diapers, fixing food, washing dishes and laundry and full days of school. This past week was the kind of week that Joe asked me 3 different days if I was sure the coffee we are drinking is caffeinated, we both felt the added busyness.
This woman was asking me if our family was going to be doing a co-op and I said, "No, with so many little ones, I just can't." She looked at me completely clueless and said, "You can, you just don't want to!" Seriously?! I wanted to tell her she was offensive, I don't have two children like she does and only one of them school age. I wanted to ask if she ever tried getting out all day with 5 children, two in diapers and one nursing. I wanted to ask if she thought I could really be involved in what each of them were learning in 5 different classrooms. I wanted to ask her if she really thought I needed another obligation, by teaching a class or watching a nursery. I wanted to tell her we only have one vehicle, so this would mean I would have to get all the kids up early and take Joe to school.
Instead I said, "No, I can't. I mean yes I could, but for me to stay sane, no. I can't." Then I ended the conversation and struck up a conversation with another lady. This home school mom has 6 children most of them older than mine. She is involved in a co-op as well and loves it. We were talking about curriculum and plans for the school year, I began telling her why I can't do a co-op, she stopped me and said, "Well, yeah! That'd be crazy, your plate is full right now." Her understanding words meant so much to me, they validated that I wasn't just being a lazy mom, she had been here and knows.
This small instance is just a reminder, how words have power, they can make you feel alone or make you feel understood, make you feel judged or make you feel accepted. Words have power!