Saturday, February 21, 2015

Losing my mind to stomach virus, almost

I've washed and rewashed the same loads of laundry all week long. Everyday repeats like the same Andy Griffith shows, Daniel Tiger episodes and Duck Dynasty's we've watched over and over. 
We all rotate from one set of pj's to another. This super virus we caught won't let go, it makes a 24 hour stomach bug look like a piece of cake.
Brady was sick from Sunday until Friday morning. Anne has been sick since Wednesday night and last night Bethany went down hard. We thought she was going to take Joseph down with her, but so far he's held up. The moaning and whining has been hard to bear, these kid have been in misery! So sad and frustrating to watch.
We've all slept in the living room together the last two nights because Thursday, at midnight, the power went out. The temperature was -11, we needed to stay warm by the kerosine heater. Last night, we weren't sure if it would stay on, with the threat of ice, we did the same thing. The temperature has come up to above freezing now and the electric did stay on last night.
When the electric went off on Thursday, Joe and I were getting the non-sick kids out of their beds and bringing everyone into the living room. We were passing on our twisty stairs in the dark, I was holding Laynee and I slipped and fell. Trying to protect her, I wasn't able to catch myself and landed hard on my tailbone on the edge of the step. It hurt, it still hurts. My upper body is sore from my neck and shoulders through my core and my tailbone hurts to sit. This has added to the challenges of jumping up to take care of sick kids, bending over beds to change bedding, load and unload the washer and dryer and nursing Laynee.
Joe has slept in the recliner since Sunday night when he took care of Brady. I've slept on the couch since Monday night. We are tired, we haven't pieced more an a few hours of sleep together in each 24 hours. It's been the longest week. We've managed to get a shower almost every other day. We've glanced at each other numerous times and we both know what that look says, "I'm about to lose my ever loving mind!" I'm so thankful to have him home to help me during this week of busy days trying to stay afloat and even longer nights. If he was working, I'd be doing most of it by myself and I would've lost my ever loving mind!
During dificult times like this it's easy to feel sorry for ourselves and question why. Why did God let us get this? Why didn't He answer our prayers to stop
it? {I know, a stomach bug that might take us into March, if we all get it at the rate we are going, as crummy as it is, isn't the worst thing ever. But still...} We ask why and gripe and complain.

I've been reading in Joshua this week, about God bringing the Isrealites across the Jordan. They watched the Jordan river stop flowing, Joshua saw and talked with an angel of the LORD, they saw the walls of Jericho fall, and then it says in chapter 7 that 36 of their men died in a battle. 36 out of 3,000. 
In Joshua 7:5 it says, "And at this the hearts of the people melted in fear and became like water." How soon we foget all the great things the Lord has done for us when something doesn't go easy or the way we want it to go. Joshua 7:10 "The Lord said to Joshua, "Stand up! What are you doing down on your face?"
I love that the Lord said, "Stand up!" Like get yourself together and stop feeling sorry for yourself. 
The reason lives were lost was because someone had sinned, Achan had disobeyed God's command and stolen. This was a reminder to me of the great price owed for our sin. I tend to forget how a great a price sin costs, especially before Jesus died on the cross to pay the debt of everyone's sin. Sin continues to affect not only the person choosing to sin but others are affected as well. Achan's entire family and animals all paid because of his sin, not to mention the 36 men who died and their families.
When sin entered the world, by Adam and Eve, it allowed for all kinds of evil and sickness and heartache and pain to rule. Because of Christ's death on the cross, we can have eternal life in heaven where these things are no more. And because of His great love and compassion for us we are not consumed and we can live lives that experience much happiness and beauty, blessings and works of His faithfulness and goodness. All things we do not deserve!
Stomach virus is a result of sin in this broken world, but it doesn't change the goodness God provides. It doesn't rule out the Lord's faithfulness and His provision and all that He gives to me. I'm so thankful that time and time again God protects me and my family, that He continually provides for all my needs, that He has forever forgiven my sin, that His mercies are new every morning and His promises never change. I'm thankful that even on the worst days, He draws me to Himself, that He hears my call for help and that He sees and knows the struggles. I'm thankful for the way He leads me and strengthens me and gives me what I need most. 

I can't begin to praise His name enough for giving me this life, with these 6 kids, and a husband that tells me I'm hot, even when I haven't had a shower in days, smell like poo and have scary tired eyes. Only a fire could get me to open the door and face anyone right now, yet he tells me I'm beautiful and he loves me! 

Psalm 146

Praise the Lord.

Praise the Lord, my soul.

I will praise the Lord all my life;
    I will sing praise to my God as long as I live.
Do not put your trust in princes,
    in human beings, who cannot save.
When their spirit departs, they return to the ground;
    on that very day their plans come to nothing.
Blessed are those whose help is the God of Jacob,
    whose hope is in the Lord their God.

He is the Maker of heaven and earth,
    the sea, and everything in them—
    he remains faithful forever.
He upholds the cause of the oppressed
    and gives food to the hungry.
The Lord sets prisoners free,
    the Lord gives sight to the blind,
the Lord lifts up those who are bowed down,
    the Lord loves the righteous.
The Lord watches over the foreigner
    and sustains the fatherless and the widow,
    but he frustrates the ways of the wicked.

10 The Lord reigns forever,
    your God, O Zion, for all generations.

Praise the Lord.

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