Sunday, November 15, 2015

Catching up and setting reasonable goals

Brady and Anne are such buddies and busy bodies. Oh mercy, the messes this house sees on a daily basis. The insanity! The markers, the pens, the spilled water, the bathroom sinks that overflow, the meltdowns they throw, the countless times they change their clothes and costumes, the papers they cut and the books they rip, the drawings on the walls and on their legs, the crumbs on the floors and the food on their fingers and in their hair, it all never ends.
They are so doggone cute and double cute together.
We adopted this little pokey guy several weeks ago when I found him crawling across the front step. The kids were so excited when I said we would keep him, you would've thought I'd given them a dog.
He is still alive and we are hopeful he will spin a cocoon and we can watch him turn into a Giant Leopard Moth. So far, he just sleeps, eats and poops. Very low maintenance. We are running out of foliage to feed him as the weather is getting colder. Hopefully he will hibernate soon.
Bethany has been learning Christmas music on the piano. I'm so proud of her and how much she loves to practice. She is really self driven, I just offer help when she asks or is struggling. This past week she learned 3 Christmas songs, I'm so excited to have her playing.
God blessed us with an awesome deal of a trampoline. We had been thinking about getting one for about a year. The kids all love it and spend hours jumping. It's been a great way for Brady and Anne to burn energy and the big kids to get exercise.
(They do not jump with Laynee.)
Our sweet boy turned 10! I don't even know, I think I'm numb or in denial. One of the perks of turning 10 is playing with fire and lighting your own candles. We gave him hunting clothes weeks before his birthday for hunting season. On his birthday he had a cousin over to spend the night, we went to Bass Pro and they both got cap guns. He didn't get to blow out a candle until 4 days after his birthday but I guess we just made it all last alot longer. It felt low key for a 10th birthday but I think he had fun.
We went out to eat at Culver's on his birthday and each took turns saying what we love about him. I was in tears, there just aren't enough words to say how well he loves us all. His love is very tangible, he helps, he gives, he shows love to each of us. Some of the kids said he always makes time for them, he will stop what he is doing to play what they want to play and that if they need help, they know Joseph will help them.
He has been gone several weekends hunting with my dad and we all miss him when he is gone. The little kids are so excited when he comes home and he misses them. He loves us all so well and has such an incredible heart. I'm so grateful for him and that God gave him to us.
Laynee finally cut her first 2 teeth this week. She is so close to walking but makes no attempts. She is super cautious and laid back. She is the sweetest, we all love her to pieces. All day, we just can't stop kissing her and awe-ing over her cuteness and sweet ways.
Brady recently wanted to learn to write his name. He practically learned himself and was writing almost all the letters of his name, just in the wrong order. I sat him down and showed him how to write it one time. He copied it 14 times, he counted and told me. I said, "You did such a good job! I want you to turn your paper over and without looking at the letters see if you can write it the right way." I turned his paper over and walked away. A few seconds later I turned around and he was writing with his eyes closed! It was really cute and I had to re-explain what I meant. Ever since that day, he write BRADY on everything and has never misspelled it. He is very eager to learn how to write new words and anytime he asks, I'll write the word and he copies it so great. I'm excited to see him so interested in learning.
The kids were comparing belly buttons, who had innies or outies. One of them asked me what kind of belly button was and wanted to see it. I showed them and said, "My belly button is neither, it's just flat and stretched out from all the babies in my belly." Jenna immediately said, "Well, I want a stretched out belly button too because I'm going to have 20 babies in my belly." It was so sincere and just one of Jenna's shining moments she makes us all laugh without knowing why.

This past week I found it helpful to mentally set reasonable, necessary goals for myself everyday. I always have a mental list of things I want to get done during the day and it's always far too long and unreasonable, so at the end of the day, I'm discouraged and feel like I've failed because my house isn't perfect and I see all the things I wanted to accomplish and didn't.
I start with the basic, most important goals for the day. School and cook supper. These look so small on paper but they involve hours of time and determination and if I just accomplish these two things my day is a success. Usually I add in a couple of things I know I can tackle as well, like laundry, vacuuming, cleaning bathrooms or organizing a closet.  I pick about 4 main goals for the day. It keeps me moving and motivated. At the end of the day, when I see messes and things that need doing, I refuse to feel guilty or bad about myself because I know what I have accomplished and I know I can't do everything, there are only so many hours in a day.
It seems so simple and silly maybe, but it has made a huge difference for me in giving myself grace and not being so hard on myself.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

So often I struggle with being weak, with not being able to get everything done. I hate when I fail to be everything I think I should be. God really used this scripture to show me that I can have freedom in my weaknesses. It's not that I'm giving up or I'm not trying, it's that I do my best and it will still never be enough. God doesn't expect perfection from me, He doesn't expect me to be super mom and constantly be caught up on everything. No, He made me incapable to living life without Him. He made me in need of His help and strength. He uses my weakness to make Himself known.
I'm so grateful for my messy house and my insanely long mental to do list that never will end to remind me that I need surrender my guilt and weariness and accept the strength that God gives. I was never made to do this life alone, to be enough. This is a lesson I continue to learn over and over and over and over... I'm leaning heavy on the Lord, daily resting in His calling and His help.
One day at a time, moment by moment.

We want the feeling of adequacy today for what we will have to go through tomorrow. But God says, Trust me. I will give it to you when you need it. - Piper


Anonymous said...

Love following you and your kids just get cuter and cuter!! I think I will do the short list of things to accomplish as well. Great idea!!

~SailorMoon from Texas

Hannah said...

Yes!!! I LOVE what you wrote about making a REASONABLE list and letting yourself be okay with not getting everything done. I almost drive myself crazy sometimes before I realize, "it's okay! It's not going to all get done!" Thanks for the reminder. Love you, dear friend! Don't ever forget, you are my "mommy hero"!!! I'm going to be like you when I grow up!!!