(They do not jump with Laynee.)
He has been gone several weekends hunting with my dad and we all miss him when he is gone. The little kids are so excited when he comes home and he misses them. He loves us all so well and has such an incredible heart. I'm so grateful for him and that God gave him to us.
This past week I found it helpful to mentally set reasonable, necessary goals for myself everyday. I always have a mental list of things I want to get done during the day and it's always far too long and unreasonable, so at the end of the day, I'm discouraged and feel like I've failed because my house isn't perfect and I see all the things I wanted to accomplish and didn't.
I start with the basic, most important goals for the day. School and cook supper. These look so small on paper but they involve hours of time and determination and if I just accomplish these two things my day is a success. Usually I add in a couple of things I know I can tackle as well, like laundry, vacuuming, cleaning bathrooms or organizing a closet. I pick about 4 main goals for the day. It keeps me moving and motivated. At the end of the day, when I see messes and things that need doing, I refuse to feel guilty or bad about myself because I know what I have accomplished and I know I can't do everything, there are only so many hours in a day.
It seems so simple and silly maybe, but it has made a huge difference for me in giving myself grace and not being so hard on myself.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
So often I struggle with being weak, with not being able to get everything done. I hate when I fail to be everything I think I should be. God really used this scripture to show me that I can have freedom in my weaknesses. It's not that I'm giving up or I'm not trying, it's that I do my best and it will still never be enough. God doesn't expect perfection from me, He doesn't expect me to be super mom and constantly be caught up on everything. No, He made me incapable to living life without Him. He made me in need of His help and strength. He uses my weakness to make Himself known.
I'm so grateful for my messy house and my insanely long mental to do list that never will end to remind me that I need surrender my guilt and weariness and accept the strength that God gives. I was never made to do this life alone, to be enough. This is a lesson I continue to learn over and over and over and over... I'm leaning heavy on the Lord, daily resting in His calling and His help.
One day at a time, moment by moment.
We want the feeling of adequacy today for what we will have to go through tomorrow. But God says, Trust me. I will give it to you when you need it. - Piper