Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Bethany's birthday and more

Bethany's birthday last week was a reminder of how fast time goes and quickly my babies grow up and change. It was bittersweet. I think I've probably used that word often to describe a birthday but I know none of them came close to being so entirely summed up in that one word. Bittersweet.
It was a good day. I decided that morning that birthdays don't come often enough when you are a child and must be celebrated to the fullest. We did one of Bethany's favorite things, packed a lunch, loaded up Max, supplies to paint and drove to Bernheim. It was a happy time, we came home and she baked her traditional birthday cake. She requested a doll for her birthday and Joe had insisted on taking her shopping on Labor Day to let her pick one out. On her birthday we gave her the movie, Narnia and a monogrammed bag for her ballet clothes and piano books.
Nothing prepares me for the changing seasons of motherhood and that day we both felt the winds of change smacking us in the face. I pray these days of struggle are the ones that cement a deep friendship in our mother daughter relationship. The ones that prove I'm a listening ear and a compassionate confidant, a shoulder to cry on and a voice she longs to hear say, "We will get through this together, it's going to be okay." I pray I'm the one she knows will remind her of God's promises, that He is faithful, that He is loving, that He will never leave her, that He hears all her prayers and knows all her feelings, that He is good and in control and can be trusted. And I hope she knows when I see her hurting I pray fiercely for her.

There is so much I want to say about this girl of mine, but somehow the years make me quieter when it comes to telling her story and all the details. It seems not my place to share her thoughts and struggles, her hopes and dreams. I just have to say that she is beautiful and amazes me daily. I'm so grateful to be her mother, to walk these new seasons with her. Despite me and all my motherhood mess ups, she is something special. 

Birthday pictures will happen soon! September has been packed full with Labor Day, Bethany started back piano lessons, Bethany and Jenna started ballet, Joe and I celebrated our 13th wedding anniversary, school is in full swing and we've had a touch of a stomach virus. I've had an ear infection since July 30th. It's improved and worsened since then. It's caused enough trouble making me take 5 trips to the doctor, 2 antibiotics, 2 ear drops, a nasal spray and a steroid. I hadn't been able to hear well since last week and yesterday the pain was crippling. A trip to the doctor last night resulted in getting my ear cleaned out of all kinds of yuckiness! It was immediate relief and now hopefully the ear drops can do their thing to clear up the lingering outer ear infection.
Hazel is growing and continues to be a perfect baby. She is sleeping through the night most nights, is very content and has a really peaceful disposition. I was sick with a stomach virus and my ear was hurting and Joe took care of her the past two nights. He slept on the couch next to her bassinet and fed her bottles. Last night I woke up to her crying and walked into the living room to see Joe sitting on the couching feeding her in the dark. As I turned to go back to bed, I heard him repeatedly kissing her. She is one loved little girl.
We have had some really amazing weather, the intense heat and humidity have gone away several days and the evenings are getting more and more golden. Jenna is getting her two front teeth and reading so much better. Anne is still a little chatterbox that will not stop talking and is highly allergic to mosquitoes. Laynee is talking more everyday and needs to have her paci taken away but I still have no plan to do so. Brady is rocking Kindergarten, he is so much fun to teach. Today he couldn't remember the name of the number 15 but said, "It's 4 down from 19 right?" Joseph is counting down to archery starting back and deer season, it's almost here too.
I'm so happy September is here, it's my favorite month. I hope to get more blogging in soon. I never make it here often enough and then when I do, it's a struggle to fit it all in at once. 

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