I just lost a long post I'd typed up... I don't have the heart to even try to redo it...
I talked about the sunlight being golden. I shared how I feel weary, soul weary. Not motherhood weary, not just normal must do's weary, the bone tired weary dealing with the hard things in life and struggling to find the time to sort through my emotions and thoughts coherently. I don't even know what to say about it enough to post it here, especially a second time. Ugh!
This week is fall break, I'm excited to linger and not have to rush to start the days and push my kids all day. I'm looking forward to camping and enjoying beautiful fall weather and making memories with our family.
Tonight the 5 youngest and I went outside and lingered in the quiet woods. We picked flowers and watched the sunset. I watched Laynee drag her blanket, demand her paci and clutch Bunny Boo. I saw Anne's curls shine in the sunlight. I watched Jenna and Brady run to the top of a hill of clover.
I'm making time to embrace the beautiful in my life this week. This week I'm lingering. This week I'm taking time to love the simple but priceless moments that surround me daily. I'm going to breathe in deep breaths of fall air and exhale slowly. I'm going to give thanks for all the good gifts I don't deserve and give God all the hard things I've been shouldering, burdens that make me weary.
It's fall break, I'll be lingering.
Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”