Monday, July 3, 2017

Psalm 62:1-2 says, "My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken."

Then in verses 5-8 it reads. "Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge."

Verses 11-12 says, "One thing God has spoken, two things have I heard: that you, O God, are strong and that you, O Lord, are loving. 

In the next chapter, Psalm 63:1 says, "O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirst for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water. 

Verses 3-5 says, "Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands. My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you. 

Verses 7-8, "Because you are my help, I will sing in the shadow of your wings. My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me.

Maybe you are like me, feeling the weary places in your life taking their toll. Like the weary places are all starting to connect and take over. We live in a broken world, filled with broken people and broken hearts. This world is a dry and weary land where there is no water, no water that satifies. No fixes to the problems. Broken relationships, fears of the unknowns, financial struggles, conflict and constant drainers of joy. Guilt for not being enough, not doing things perfectly. 

My heart can feel like one giant mess of hurts and the constant battle of soul care is difficult. To walk in love and forgiveness, being gracious and not easily offended are daily prayers. And I often fail. 

It's an impossible task to take care of myself on my own. Venting to a friend, counseling, are self help books are often helpful resources but never true sources of heart healing, never enough to change my sinful heart. Nothing will fix my life, to fix my heart except, pursuing the very Creator of my heart. Peace and satisfaction come when I lift up my hands, open and empty. When I pour out my heart to God and take my eyes off myself and look to him to be my firm foundation and protect me. He is the strong one, the perfectly loving God. He is the one who provides my peace and satisfaction. 

A few lines that I loved from these passages are:

My souls finds rest in God alone. /No one and nothing else.

My soul thirst for you.

My soul will be satisfied as with richest of foods.

My soul clings to you. /Dear God, help me to cling only to you and hold everyone and everything else loosely. 

I've been reading through Praying Through the Bible by Donald S. Whitney, with a friend. It's been really amazing to take a Psalm and turn it into a prayer by just praying out loud either the words of a verse or what God leads from reading the verse. These two chapters have been very fitting as I've felt soul weary and my heart struggles so often to love when it's wounded. It's not about ourselves, not about our stories, not about our struggles, it's about God and who he wants us to become through the struggles. May His name be lifted high, may I proclaim His praise every single day that He gives me breath. 

1 comment:

Sharony said...

You are so refreshing! Your honesty is what we all need. Thank you for sharing your heart.